This post has been bouncing around in me for a pretty long time now…
I’d say close to a year.
I suppose it’s time to write it since I’m sitting here at my computer with it begging to be told.
I share this with you from a place of vulnerability and love and with a hope that even one person might find it helpful.
My life has been nothing of the fairy-tale my 6 year old little self had once imagined.
Dare I say~ it has been better?
Because the fairy-tale version of a life would not have taught me the life lessons I needed to learn.
Compassion, empathy, wisdom, balance, harmony, peace, healthy boundaries, and
the importance of treating all beings equal.
To try and try and keep on trying. AND then try some more.
To follow my heart.
Two years ago.
My life hit a very low place- lower than I ever even imagined life could get.
As I looked about me at the pieces of it… I really had no idea why or what or how this had all become MY life.
I made a decision.
To follow my truth in my heart~ no one else’s; not a churches, not a culture or community’s, not other people’s,
not a notta.
I gave my life to God.
I told him that I didn’t really want to live anymore, that I’d made such a mess of things- trying to find this fairytale.
That I needed him to show me the way to a life of joy, of love, of peace, and true happiness.
To have the courage to follow my heart.
At the age of 40 with 3 kids and 3 divorces; I enrolled in the Culinary Arts Program at a local university.
AND my heart sang!
Follow your heart~ the things that make your heart sing are the things that will bring you a life of joy!
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve listened to this song by Lady Antebellum…
probably close to a thousand.
Let your heart be your compass… even when the road seems all up hill.
We never walk alone.
The divine watch over us, guide us, and want to lead us to a joyful and beautiful life.
Each of us has a different journey but I believe the key is to
Follow your Heart.
I love each of you so much and I’m so grateful to have this space to share my journey.
Thank you for coming to visit me.
Much Love and Peace~
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Ruthie that was such a beautiful post. Thanks for sharing your heart. I have 2 kids and divorced once. My life has not been a fairytale either. But I’m not looking for it either. I too follow God. Not because my heart tells me to I make a choice too. You see I do not trust my heart. It has led me down the wrong path to horrible choices and very bad mistakes as well as wrong decisions because I listened to it. I’m so happy your heart has chosen God but if it ever tells you otherwise I would not listen to it. God bless you on your journey with the culinary choice. Maybe you’ll be a great chef someday. If not that’s ok you’re already on your way for great things. God bless you!!!
Hi Catherine… thank you for your kind comment. I appreciate all your words and I understand some of what you’re talking about with mistakes~ I guess for me the important thing was learning from my mistakes and seeing how I am a better person today for all of those things I’ve experienced. Life gives us lots of opportunities to grow 🙂 Hang in there. I know it can be a rough road but if we stay true to ourselves and to God we’ll find our way. I’m so excited to tell you that I’m actually graduating in 2 months! CHEF will soon be my title 🙂 xoxo~ Ruthie
Kim S says
Beautiful. And yes, if you follow your heart beautiful things can and will happen.
Jesus will see that you have the desires of your heart.
Keep it up.
Love you with the love of Jesus.
Thank you Kim 🙂 You’re so sweet! xoxo~ Ruthie